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nothing
03:40
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everything is fine when lying is easy then we don't speak it means nothing to me build lists to fill the time refill the shelf with wine the walls are all i see it means nothing to me just throw my cares away stop bathing everyday perfect this poor display it means nothing to me i won't be taking calls from friends especially just loneliness is all it means nothing to me
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the ride
02:01
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when i met the sky i didn't know i'd find a piece of my own mind buried in the clouds and like you can guess as i took that step i fell right through the nest of fluffy white but it's okay tonight my dreams prepared me for the ride oh if i die i'll be fine.
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snake take
01:56
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it's a massive lie a constant dream that floats between my mind and the skies i see and when i pinch my eyes enough to feel the salty streams dissolve all i thought was real i exercise my brow to sort the fears that float around and hope that i can fix my restless heart from beating but realizing what i said would more than likely mean i'm dead i take a sip to wash the guilt that i've been feeling because it's me who's having trouble with believing it takes a moment to wake up and stop agreeing to the cards that pop up when a snake is dealing when i am half listening to the silence of the morning i am mourning as i'm wishing it would end i fall in love with the moonlight as the day begins.
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river
02:08
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when those words left his mouth and the clouds stuck around with the sun shining down and my pride to the ground i knew distance had grown from the face that you showed and the feelings we felt where did their meaning go? the books i read they look at me abandonment is what i see and the people i meet whom i love incomplete a folded page underneath the body waiting to be seen but i don't know what has happened to my blood it is thick like the consistency of mud running cold and slow it pushes at my bones while my heart refuses to be left alone.
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awake
02:01
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things we didn't say well that don't change the way i feel and when i think of times i didn't have to lie to you but we can't change the past i know you won't be back so please remain always in my dreams i want to fall asleep to know your name it's still a mystery how you've been keeping me awake.
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cement
01:22
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staying sweet
06:45
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fast forward five years from now i'm visiting my sister proud she tells me all the things she's done encouraging what i may still become but somehow all that talk is spit success is what you make of it "i've gathered all my ducks in line i was alone but now i'm doing fine," she lies.
it's no surprise when you're finding what your life is for somehow you're still needing more but who am i without these things we'd never learn this is what i said to her isn't this what you wanted didn't it feel like you got it i'm the one that's telling you it's here maybe this is just some phase you're going through you'll see it in a different way my dear.
growing up i let it be now in new york at twenty three i moved here with my truest love and realize what dreams are really of but when things get good i'm scared to feel it's hard to tell what's rum from real so i stay sweet like everyday but even sweet goes sour with the love it made it strayed.
but that's okay if there is one thing i'll never know it's how to make your loving show it was your loss too if you finally discern the rue this is what i'll say to you isn't this what you wanted didn't it feel like you got it i'm the one who's left with nothing here maybe this was just some phase you're going through i knew i'd lose you anyway my dear.
birthdays mess you up so hard remind us how lonely we are but when mom and dad come up to play their visits make this sadness go away but these pictures in my head of you the words we spoke but now it's through the whole is greater than the sum but why then do i feel so fucking numb?
what have i done? left behind all that i knew to discover what's inside of you look what i've become time's never been a friend to me and parents have no sympathy
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